Over the last 2 1/2 years, I have been studying leadership. I never saw myself as a leader before. Only in this time frame have I begun to understand my role requires the qualities of being a leader. I was never a leader in high school. I wasn't a captain of the sports team. I didn't inspire or draw people to be my friends. I didn't see my role as a pastor being a leader in my previous appointments. But this time was different. I had to own the role and its responsibility. So as I read and studied the roles and responsibilities I was supposed to take on, I discovered that I am not suited for them as I am. I always thought that my mission as a pastor was to help people become better Christians. It seemed that my gifts and calling were such that I was to increase their ability to live the faithful life. I assumed that my life would develop naturally alongside. Reality is, though, that I have spent so much focus on others that I didn't manage my own development like I shou...