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Displaced

We have moved into our new appointment. Thus the delay in posting. Plus a week at camp. But mostly an overwhelming sense of being displaced. I'm not sure where it is coming from. It's really a feeling of disassociation with what is going on around me. I normally feel fairly secure in any environment or setting. But I have really been struggling with a mental "wall" around me.

It's not really anything to do with the new churches. We have been warmly welcomed and received by everyone that we have met. The men of the church were there to help us move in. The new house is having the finishing touches put on. The worship services are not too stressful. This is really a sense of feeling like, "I'm not really here."

It could be a very mild form of depression or grieving our last appointment. But I am very excited about what can happen in this appointment. So I have been pushing myself out of my routine and beyond my personality limits to meet and connect with people in our new community.

So, here's to hoping I find my place soon. Because this is a great place to be right now.
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Lisa said…
I wish I was there to help you feel a little more "placed". We will be home soon!
3:59 PM
Anonymous said…
I can relate after our multiple moves across many states during the last year! Putting myself out there and forcing myself to make connections really helped. I'll be praying for you!
5:47 PM
Friar said…
Hang in there. You know you want to be able to quote Gen 50:20 at the appropriate time ;-)

PS -- the word verification I had to type to comment was "peeeg." I'm going to remember that word; it's got to have some value someplace...
2:37 PM
Anonymous said…
Been watching your blog glad to see you are finally up and running.Once you have all your electronics up and going you will feel more in time with everything again. Hope you had your books unpacked. Best always and you know you are always in our prayers and thoughts.
9:33 PM
Anonymous said…
You are going to get to know a lot of loving caring people here in your new appointment. A few of us are computer literate. I'm the only gamer I know of though. Displaced and disconnected sounds pretty normal. Hope you settling in becomes easier.
A sister in Christ
LB
11:22 PM
latoberg said…
Thanks for all the words of encouragement.

I'm facing this new appointment with excitement and facing the future. I'm putting myself before God to discover the vision for the Turpin and Baker churches and my place in that vision.

So the displacement is not a negative, it is just a place I've never been before.
11:09 AM
Rev. Counselor said…
I am a creature of habit and change is always difficult for me. I think the feelings maybe connected to all the changes and excitement and feeling overwhelmed. I am glad it is not a negative thing, just a new thing. As all have said things will settle down soon as you find your place in this new environment. Don't forget that many parts of your life has not changed. Your family and freinds being one of those. I will pray that this new expereince is an oppurtunity to grow in God. God's peace and Blessings be upon you. Also, if you need to talk more give me a call.
9:26 AM
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